Whatever I Feel LikeGosh!

I almost forgot how to get here to make an entry. Okay, that’s an exaggeration, but still. It goes to show how not into blogging I am.

I feel like I say everything I have to say on the message boards I go to… but then I realize not everyone who would read here posts on those boards. Man, this is thrilling to read, isn’t it?

I’ve been trying to take it easy this week compared to what it’s been like for me lately… I practically had a breakdown last week and so I knew this week had to be different. Hiring someone to help me at work probably has a lot to do with me feeling like I can breathe now, too. Especially since my life seems to be consumed by work these days. I never understood how Rob could work all day and then come home and do more work at night, but now I find myself doing the same thing… and if not actually working, at least thinking about work, researching stuff for work, talking about work. I guess that would be all good if I didn’t have a life, but I just so happen to have one of those, too.

I was overwhelmed with such a sense of gratitude for my life and all that is in it on Thursday. It made me realize that even though things can get overwhelming at times, the things that are overwhelming are all primarily good - my life is so full with friends and family and love, it’s amazing. What else is amazing is how I can take that goodness and turn it into a negative thing without realizing it.

So tonight I’m just sitting around, chillin’, listening to iTunes on shuffle, hanging out online and doing some laundry. I need nights like this. You know what I noticed, if I just let the songs come up randomly, I will listen to just about any song that comes on, but if one starts to get on my nerves, I hit the next button. Once I start hitting that next button, it’s like a compulsion. I can’t stop. It’s “next”, “next”, “next” on songs that I would have probably happily listened to if I wasn’t in the iTunes window. Anyway. Random observation there. What are some of your favorite songs right now? Mine are Greenday’s “Wake Me Up When September Ends” and Audioslave’s “Doesn’t Remind Me”.

Here’s a secret confession - I want to be a singer in a rock n roll band. Seriously.

Signing off - I’m going to go read either Bono in Conversation with Michka Assayas or My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult. Both are very good, but completely different. I just love me some Bono; he’s such an intriguing character.