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A Moment of Silence

Tuesday, March 14th, 2006

Let’s get this out of the way now – you can just start calling me Debbie Downer.

I am so freaking bummed/worried/upset and not sure what to do. Remember I went to the hearing aide doctor to find out about new aides? Wait, did I blog that? Well, anyway – I did. The ones that I want are about 5K. That’s high, and I think it sucks that insurance won’t cover them at all, but my hearing is worth it and I’ll gladly pay it for something as vital as this. And we even have the money to pay for them outright in the bank right now.

Anyway, I went to that doctor with the idea of just scoping out the costs and my options. One of my aides broke a few weeks ago, but I repaired it. I knew I didn’t have a whole lot longer for it to give out, so I wanted to start looking. Well, the good news is that I started looking. The bad news is – that aide died today. :-(

So what’s the problem? That money we have in the bank is part of the money that is to be used for down payment and/or closing costs on buying a house. We have the option to finance the hearing aides, but my mortgage dude told me to not incur any new debt until we make settlement. So. Basically we have the option to wait another fucking year to buy a house or I wait 3 months to get new aides. Unless some other option opens up that I’m not able to see right now because of the fear and worry.

The timing of this sucks big fat ones.

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Wah.

Wednesday, March 8th, 2006

Did you ever have the experience as a kid where you really were the last one to get picked for the team? When you really were the one people were ridiculing, leaving out or making fun of? It sucks and it’s painful and I had hoped to never feel those kinds of feelings again. Hell, I spent years anesthesizing myself to any feelings at all as an indirect result of experiences like that. But that’s an entry for another time.

Last night, though, those feelings came flooding back and I was back there, again, as the awkward 13 year old, unsure of herself and her surroundings. No one made fun of me or was purposely mean to me, but a friend of mine was unthoughtful and did sort of pick another friend over me for something and it hurt. Like hell. I’m still smarting from it and trying to reaffirm my “okay-ness”, Stuart Smalley style. I’m good enough, I’m smart enough and doggone it, people like me! Ugh.

And now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to watch the latest episodes of The Office and American Idol, followed by bed. I think that is what the doctor is ordering for this weary little puppy.

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TV Tuesday

Tuesday, March 7th, 2006

I love Tuesdays. I “can’t” go to a meeting at night because Rob goes to his, so I can go home and get right in my PJs if I so choose – which I usually do, unless the boys have friends over. Then I usually park myself on the couch and hang out with my kids watching TV and surfing the Internet. Tonight should be good: American Idol and The Amazing Race. Woo! Boston Legal is on, too, but I usually end up watching that on another night. Oh man, I just noticed TAR is not on until 10. This means I will start watching AI around 9:20 and then TAR around 10:15 so I can skip commercials, but not stay up too late. I get a secret thrill when I start watching the show at just the right time to skip through all the commercials and still end at the same time the show actually ends. I know I need a life. Shut up.

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One Million Blogs

Tuesday, March 7th, 2006

I thought this was kind of cool and it’s only $1, so I signed up. I’m #173. See? 173

Edited to add: I am such a dork. I didn’t link to the OMB site or anything. D’oh!! Link fixed and here’s a little info: this is similar to that site where the teenager sold 1 pixel by 1 pixel of ad space for a buck and made a ton of money. Except here you’re buying 30 pixels by 30 pixels and have the potential of having money filtered back to you. Worth a shot!

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Decisions.

Monday, March 6th, 2006

Ahhh. It’s so hard to know what to do where this house buying thing is concerned. Do we go with a house that seems small for us, but one that we have the money for the downpayment for and will be able to make the monthly payments with no problems whatsoever. Or do we go with one that will stretch us a bit more on a montly basis and where we might have to borrow a couple grand to have in the bank as a cushion so the bank will give us the loan? Do we go with a house that isn’t in the best shape and is on the small side but is in a terrific neighborhood on a big lot with lots of potential? Or do we go with a house that is nicer, but the neigborhood isn’t the exact one we wanted? I am not liking this one bit and wish it was over already.

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