Whatever I Feel Like

Four years ago today, I decided I was finally sick and tired of being sick and tired where my eating was concerned. I went to my first 12-step meeting and began my journey of recovery for my eating issues. For four years I have not compulsively overeaten. For four years I have not (intentionally) eaten sugar, caffeine or any of my “binge foods”. For four years I have eaten at my meal times and only at my meal times, no in between eating. For four years my life has been getting better, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly – but the progression has definitely been towards the good. I’ve lost almost 110 pounds in the past four years. I haven’t gained and lost, gained and lost, gained and lost – as was my usual pattern in the past.

As a result of putting down all sugar foods, I had to give up alcohol four years ago, too. That was extremely hard and as a result, I learned that I was also an alcoholic. It took me longer to start attending recovery meetings for that addiction, but I eventually did and I’m very grateful for it. There is no way I would have been able to maintain my eating program if I was drinking. So today I celebrate two anniversaries: one of abstinence from compulsive eating and one of sobriety.

My life today is just absolutely beyond my wildest dreams. I could not be where I am today… or have maintained my abstinence from compulsive eating these past 4 years if it were not for the fellowship I have found in my meetings, for the love of program friends, sponsors and sponsees, for the absolute guiding force in my life – God. He is so good.

I went to a meeting this morning and when I came home, I had the loveliest gift on my coffee table. They came from someone I’m sponsoring. It’s so wonderful to have the connections I have with people today… both inside and outside of my recovery programs, who appreciate what a gift it is that I’m in recovery today.

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