And We’re Back

I feel like I’m always saying the same thing on here lately. “I’m busy. I’m behind. I will never get caught up on blogs, message boards and emails again.” I’m oddly at peace with it when I’m not in front of the computer. When I’m here, though, I get a sort of panicky feeling inside. I’m used to being on top of everything and now I’m not. I guess in time, this might feel normal and it will be no big deal, but for right now? It’s a major adjustment.

My weekend away was incredible. I had a great time with the people I was there with, and I got so much out of all the meetings I went to. It’s comforting to be surrounded by so much recovery. There was also much shopping done this weekend – I got a chance to hit the outlets and hit them I did. The Tanger Outlets in Rehoboth are probably some of the best outlets in our area. I could easily spend a whole weekend down there just shopping.

I was thinking, while I was there shopping, how when we lived in Dover I wasn’t so impressed with those outlets. I didn’t go there very often and I didn’t buy much. The reason for that is when we lived in Dover, Rob was in the military and I was working at Sam’s Club. We weren’t exactly rolling in the dough. We had no money to go shopping at the outlets! No wonder I wasn’t enthralled with them while I lived there. It’s a shame – or probably more a blessing – that now that I have money to spend, I live 2 1/2 hours away.

One of my friends asked me to be a guest speaker at a retreat in North Carolina in May. All of my expenses will be paid, I just need to show up and speak about my recovery from compulsive eating for an hour. I wrestled with the decision for a day, but ultimately decided that the only answer I could rightfully give was, “YES!” So in two weeks, I will be traveling to North Carolina – fun! (And scary!)

Yesterday was Rob’s first day as the boss. It feels so strange seeing him in the boss’s office. I keep waiting for my old boss to come in and ask me a stupid question (a regular occurrence while he was here!), but he’s not going to be doing that. I am feeling a deep sense of peace and freedom while at the same time realizing how tense and on guard I was at work the past few years. I didn’t even realize it until yesterday. This, too, will take some time to get used to.

Spring time is always about change in my life. Some years more so than others, but this year is proving to be one of the stronger years of change I’ve had in recent memory. I’m anxious to see what else God has in store for me.