These are trying times. Lots of stuff going on at work – I’ve been working longer hours and I’ve got more demands on me than I feel like I ever have. I’m honestly not sure how much longer I can go at this pace. Something has to change. Hopefully it will soon.
I just wanted to let you all know that I’m not dead or injured or anything like that. I just barely have time to do the things I need to do to survive in a healthy manner, let alone even think about blogging. I’ve been so drained that I’m just sort of watching the online world right now, and not participating in it. I noticed there’s lot of drama all around, and I feel so removed from it all. The drama is very tiring, too, especially after spending a weekend away with a bunch of people in recovery that don’t participate in that type of behavior any more. Here’s two things to ask yourself:
- How important is it?
- Is this worth losing my serenity over?
The answer to that second question is almost always, “No” for me. It helps to put things in perspective so I don’t go off the deep end.
Wow, little tangent there.
Anyway, life is still good. I have a lot to be grateful for, I’m just in a confusing and scary middle place right now where work is concerned and it’s affecting my serenity. I think I need to follow my own advice and ask myself those two questions on a daily (hourly!) basis where this is concerned. And you know what? Having an Internet break is actually not such a bad thing. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll one day just turn this thing on to check email every now and then, and that’s it. In fact, I kinda like that idea.
Bless your heart. I’m sorry you’re having a rough time right now.
The internet break thing did wonders for me, really. I go online for maybe an hour a day total to check email, keep in touch with friends on Myspace (mostly IRL friends), and read a few blogs just to keep up with people online that I grew to care about quite a bit…. But giving up the message boards (which were always full of some sort of drama), and the hours that I would waste online trying to keep up with everyone and everything was such a blessing for me. At a certain point I did ask myself “How important is it” and came to the conclusion that for me, it’s far more important that I spend more time interacting with my family, friends, and neighbors. Don’t get me wrong – I miss the people that I posted with for a few years straight and wish that I could find out how certain people are doing, etc. but I feel so much better than I did when I used to spend all of my free time sitting in a chair, staring at a machine.
Wow – a tangent of my own. Sorry about that!
Hang in there. I hope things get better soon with work and all. (((Hugs)))
I totally understand this! My two year break was the best thing I ever did for myself, and I really need to get back in that place.
Check emails, read the handful of blogs I read, and hit the off button. Damn, that was a nice time.
You’ve inspired me, and I hope your work situation gets better soon!
Hope things settle down for you, I stay out of the drama as well…I have enough REAL drama in my life, that I don’t need that other stuff.
I’m finally in a place online where there’s relatively little drama. I like that. I’ve also learned that the internet doesn’t own me. I own it and can use it as I please. That’s helped me be able to leave for a week or two at a time and not feel lost and alone.
As Martha says, it’s a good thing.